You Are What You Eat?

A friend asked me a few months ago, if I could’ve changed anything about my journey, would I have?  I feel compelled to share my answer.

It took 2 months, from the time I first discovered the lump (January 16th) until I had the lump removed (March 16th).  There was a lot of waiting, and I might add, stressful waiting. The mental and emotional game is so hard. I didn’t feel sick, but they were telling me I was sick.  The brain has a way of acting sick when thinking so hard about being sick. A person goes through so many different emotional phases: anger, sadness, disbelief, denial, etc.  I adopted the attitude, I might as well eat and do what I want, I already have cancer.

I was approached by a couple of people about the foods we consume and how they can affect cancer.  One was a radical approach through an email by a mother of a student. The other was a gentle nudge from a friend about watching how much sugar I was consuming because sugar is known to feed cancer.  I’m not sure if I was in the right mental state to make a complete overhaul to my diet during that time, but if I knew then what I know now, I would have. I would have committed to trying to use food/herbs to shrink the tumor before surgery.  I also want to note that we didn’t know at the onset that we would wait so long for it to be removed. There were doctors appointments where we came out with the information that surgery would be within the week and I would go into panic mode….only to wait some more.  I wouldn’t have changed my treatment at all or gone strictly with a natural treatment approach, but a smaller tumor may have changed my treatment.

I am currently following Dr. Jockers Cancer Cleanse Program and progressing into using it more in our family meals and snacks.  My boys have a high risk of cancer and therefore, I have taken great measures to rid our home of anything that could cause cancer.  This can be found not just in our foods, but in our soaps, cleaners, containers, etc. I use an app on my phone called “Think Dirty” which evaluates several products for cleanliness.  

There are so many things that we can’t control, I feel that I need to control what I can.  We, as a society, have so many health problems and there is so much cancer. I keep thinking that there has to be something in our environment that is causing it to be on the rise.

Here are some of the places that I found in my research that give information on alternative approaches to treatment:

Chris Beat Cancer

My Cancer Story Rocks

Dr. Jockers

I hope this helps. I would love to answer any questions you may have or hear of anymore resources to build an adequate list to help others.

A diamond is made under extreme pressure…


On January 16th, 2018, I found a lump in my breast while in the shower.  I had never experienced this before, so naturally I freaked out. It was located really high, which now I’m extremely thankful for… The next day I saw my doctor, who was 90% sure it was nothing, but sent me on to have a mammogram and ultrasound which happened on January 24th.  What I thought of as a lump was now classified as a hard cancerous-looking mass. Later that day I had a biopsy and then the waiting game began. I was diagnosed with breast cancer on Friday, January 26th. Early detection, stage 2 (I could give you the scientific name). We were sent into a whirlwind…MRI, surgery consultation, plastic surgery consultation, and more waiting.  I had my sentinel lymph node (the ones that drain the breast) removed on February 22nd. Then more waiting. The cancer had spread to the lymph nodes and was found in 2 out of the 3 lymph nodes that were removed. I had a bi-lateral mastectomy on Friday, March 16th. 2-3 weeks for recovery. A port was put in for chemo treatments at the time of surgery. Chemotherapy started 4 weeks after surgery and continued every 3 weeks for 4 rounds.  Radiation followed, 5 days a week for 5 weeks. 

During the first part of my cancer journey, the diagnosis/waiting phase, I listened to many songs.  One of those songs being a song about Diamonds by Hawk Nelson. If I’m to summarize the lyrics, it would go something like this, through the pressures and intense experiences in life, God is able to refine us and make us into diamonds.  He’s making diamonds out of dust. As I decided to share my journey in a private facebook group, I named that group “He’s Making Diamonds”. I wanted the terrible horrible things I was about to go through to mean something.

Here and now I’m in the fire in above my head
Being held under the pressure don’t know what’ll be left
But it’s here in the ashesI’m finding treasure.

As I researched, this is what I found:  

“Everyone knows what a diamond looks like: a clear, polished stone with smooth facets, full of flash and sparkle. But not everyone knows that diamonds don’t start out that way—it takes a series of special circumstances (and a couple billion years!) to turn a diamond in the rough into that brilliant gem. Diamonds are unique because of the special conditions that create them. They are formed in what’s known as “diamond stability zones.” These zones are found deep within the upper mantle, over 100 miles below the Earth’s surface, with temperatures reaching 2200 degrees Fahrenheit and up to 725,000 pounds of pressure per square inch.   When carbon-bearing ore is exposed to these high pressures and temperatures, the carbon atoms are arranged into a crystal structure called a diamond lattice. As more and more carbon atoms are compressed, a diamond stone begins to form.”

It’s easy to read or hear this and think it’s the intense pressure and extreme temperature that creates the diamond, but we must remember that the pressure and temperature alone do not create the diamond.  It is the reaction the carbon-bearing ore has when withstanding the intense pressure and extreme temperature. The diamond is made when the ore reacts to the pressure and heat.

It became extremely clear to me at the beginning of my journey that I was being taken through the fire.  Some people are taken around the fire. For some people, the fire is the vehicle that takes them home. My journey was through the fire.  I could allow the heat and pressure to make me and refine in me good qualities, or I could resist the process and come out of the fire, smelling like smoke…bitter, angry, etc. I so wanted to be a diamond, but I couldn’t just sit and hope it happened. I had to choose to set my mind on the right things, choose to rise up, choose to smile, choose to fight.

I am creating this blog in the hopes that someone may read my words and be encouraged.  I want a place for people to come and have their questions answered.  No one fights this battle alone.  Maybe by telling my story and the things that helped me during each stage will help someone else, and then my fight will have purpose.